Because I haven't really done too much development work in my spare time this week, and I was very stressed and tired from last week, I was feeling extremely nervous about coming into college today. I knew I was a bit behind where I should be with the Spirit Rush project, but I just hoped I would catch up more today and get back on track with my work.
Today I continued some development sketches, and looked back at the sketches I did before (I sketched a cat for the "dark" spirit yesterday) and wanted to see if I could improve on them and if possible, decide on and finish final designs today.
Today was also the first time I used Illustrator in ages, which I have been nervous about, and am still unsure and can't remember much about Illustrator, but I will give it my best shot for this project. My knowledge on how to use Illustrator is quite limited, so if I do get stuck on anything, I will have to look it up as research. Today I quickly managed to make a rough template of the layout of the trading cards I will be making, and I am really glad I have made a start on this, as this will be essential for my project later on, and is a major part of my final product, as the idea of making these characters is for a trading card game.
I did get onto talking about bats this morning, as I know that they have very weak bone structure, and another student was looking at the bone structure for a cat, which triggered this fact in my brain. Also, bat rhymes with cat so I feel it was quite easy to have thought of that, and I was surprised that I hadn't thought that before. I also felt that bat represented darkness much more than the cat did when I drew some designs, and I thought that the designs were really improving as I was drawing these designs. I also started drawing the final character designs so that I will be ready to model them and create them digitally. I want to make all my spirits in 3D, so I feel that from what I have learned this year about 3D modelling, I should and will draw each spirit from a front view and a side view, and this should make it easier to model the characters, as I will have a template of each to work from.
Today we were also given a booklet on everything that will need to be done between now and the end of June, when the college's end of year show will be. Looking through it at first I was quite calm, although I did have a few questions, but when I got home it really occurred to me how much has really got to be done really in these next 4 1/2 weeks. PLUS I have my other module to think about, (which to be honest I find far less interesting than making Trading Cards) and that module is also asking a lot from me and when I got home I really panicked and it all got far too much. AND even though I have done some work today I do feel a bit behind where I need to be. I explained to my dad how I was feeling, and he tried to help by writing down all my worries and calming me down that evening by playing Nintendo Land with me, but I had to keep on reminding him why I was upset, which really added to my stress, even though he was only trying to help. All sorts of thoughts were going through my head, making me doubt myself and how well I am doing my course, which felt horrible. I just wish I could keep calmer in these situations, and feel I might need help in doing so. I haven't been the most relaxed person recently, mainly because of college but maybe because of other things too, such as how my family and peers expect me to be, and sometimes I do need some space and time to myself, and I have calmly told my dad this as well, and he seems very understanding about this as well.
Another thing that was mentioned today is, because I am looking into volunteering for helping people by being fun and creative, Lynda found this group that helps young disabled children by getting them to do lots of fun and creative things, and suggested I got into contact with the woman that organises these events to see if I can go along and observe what it is they do and see if I like it or not. It certainly sounds interesting, and will need to maybe discuss this further with my parents and see if they think it's a good idea. The next time they are meeting is the 9th May, which is a college day, but I think I will be allowed to go along and check it out as it is relevant work experience for what I might want to do as a career.
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